Right now I should be revising as I have my first exam on monday but to be honest I have the motivation of a snail, and am therefore writing this article.
I just cannot be bothered to read a sentence let alone be doing past papers or make notes. Most people would be worried and nervous about failing but somehow I am not, I know that when it comes to monday morning I will wake up and think to myself what have I done!? I could’ve revised so much more!
Everyone thinks they could have revised more and harder for their exams, yet we still procrastinate like there’s no tomorrow.
I think it is inhuman and cruel to keep teenagers inside when the sun is shining, sitting at a table for hours on end reading textbooks and making spider diagrams on topics and equations that I probably never use again after the exam is finished. This is what happened when I did my GCSE’s last year, I revised SO SO hard and have never had to use any of the information I learnt ever again. For example, I haven’t been able to tell anyone in spanish about my house or that smoking is bad for, algebra was a complete waste of my time and I’ve unfortunately never solved ‘x’ and i’ve never had the chance to speak about the transportation processes of rivers.
I understand why they teach you certain things as you will use them in your life if you have a career in that field, but if you are not then you spend two years of your life wasted, learning nonsense. WHY!?
What really bugs me is examiners have absolutely NO idea how hard you have worked all year round in order to get the grade you want as it depends on one exam which to be honest is a test of your memory and technique. Some people don’t even work hard and somehow manage to get all A’s when there are others who study for hours and just scrape a C. Why can’t exams just be abolished, and instead teachers and examiners monitor your progress throughout the school terms. That means more students would behave in class and actually pay attention, and we would be able to have fun when it comes to the summer term.
But no, I will be taking six exams in the next three weeks which total up to; 525 minutes sat in an exam hall. Oh the joys of doing AS levels.
First things first, I must apologise for not posting for some time, this can be blamed on my coursework, and revision for exams so therefore my school life can be held personally responsible over my decrease of having a social life right now. Right now back to business!
Summer right now is the only thing that is keeping me going, it is my motivation, well summer and food.. just thought that I will be able to wake up and think to myself I can do anything I want today excites me. For most teenagers it is the highlight of their year and for me that is certainly the case. With festivals, holidays, parties and catching up with old friends in store you must be able to understand why we love it. We have such high expectations of how good summer is going to be that sometimes we feel downhearted by the end as it wasn’t what we thought it would be. For example, we all tell ourselves we are going to go out everyday and do something crazy, this is not the case as most wake up at lunchtime, stay at home watching television and sleep some more. This is what my typical summer sounds like, but this year I am determined to do something everyday.
So I have set myself a new challenge, every exciting activity or event I participate in over summer I am going to share with you all online. Now I may not be blogging everyday because I am going away for three weeks and therefore will not be able to access wi-fi and such so give me a chance! But i am hoping to be doing things I’ve never done before such as going on my first holiday alone with my best friend and attending my first festival without any adults or parents. These may not seem terribly exciting to you, but for me I class these as some of my first steps towards adulthood and I shall be turning seventeen in summer so driving a car will definitely be on my blog!
Although, it will be difficult to do something everyday as my teachers have already warned me that i will be receiving numerous amounts of summer homework to do, which in my view is try to do all of it on the last weekend before school. This will be my last summer before my final year of school and having to think about university so I am planning to go crazy. Just not too crazy, as I don’t want to end up being grounded when I begin year 13 in september..
Now before you start reading this, I must warn that I am not discussing the hot, popular TV show ‘girls’ which everyone is talking about right now. In my opinion, it is awful and so unfunny I don’t know where to start. I am going to talk about girls, women, the female gender, the crazy people who men don’t understand stereo typically as being one of them I know how our minds work, what we truly feel and why we act in certain ways. BUT, certain aspects still confuse me as to why girls act or think in a particular way.. even though I am one.
In my school, there a girls who act differently depending on who they speak too. Lots of them do this, appearing crazy and retarded with friends so they can have a laugh but then being dum and stupid with boys because they think that’s what they like!? For me, I don’t act differently around anybody as I am not like that but I guess that makes me different to my other peers. Why do girls act ‘slutty’ and flirtatious to a boy just so they can get their attention? Why must we higher our skirts and slap on the make-up just so a boy will notice us!?
I don’t get it. Not to bitch here, as that is what I hate and try to avoid, I have to say one thing about a particular girl I know. I’m not going to name and shame because that is just pure mean but she leads boys on then drops them completely. She has done this with numerous boys I know, and even this boy I used to like quite a lot but still doesn’t understand why people say she portrays herself as a ‘slut’. Face it, if you’re going to play boys then prepare for the consequences, as you know what they say ‘play fire with fire’, and this is exactly what boys have started to do. Why must we act in a certain way for guys to find us attractive!?
Trust me when I say this girls, boys love you the most when you are yourself. Not when you put on your make-up, play hard to get or flirt with their best friend just to get their attention. I have had tones of experience of being unlucky in love, I think this is due to me being honest in how I feel. I’m not going to hide away and never speak to my crush, I want him to know that I like him. But I will do it rationally, not expecting something to happen straight away or scream in the middle of class that I ‘love him’. If he doesn’t return the favor, then okay! I will get over it (with tubs of ice cream, tissues and tears) but I will get over it.
SO, why do we still blame others for our actions when really to be honest girls you are to blame! Some may say that I am being biased and taking the boy’s side but right now, they are the ones in the right. How about you suck it up!? Grow some balls!? Be who you really are!? They aren’t worth the trouble and tears if they don’t like the real you, so don’t go crying when he calls you a ‘whore’ or unreliable because that is probably him getting the wrong idea of your little game. GIRLS, STOP playing boys or trying to get attention to yourself by kissing numerous boys at parties. It isn’t cool!
But, still girls do this. AND what is even worse is that girls will do anything to get a boy, which includes stealing other girls if it’s necessary!? Why don’t you look at the bigger picture of what you’re doing, think of the people you are hurting for your own benefit and just be yourself. Because in the words of Bruno Mars, ‘coz your amazing just the way you are..’
As many of you may know, I am a big fan of films. Doesn’t matter on the genre or who is acting in it, just as long as it entertains me or provokes thoughts than it does the job. Throughout my ‘tween’ years (9-13) I have watched every chick flick and romantic comedy you can name, as you do at that age due to being obsessed with your first crush and the subject of ‘true love’. I have swooned over the hot guy who she kisses at prom, acted out scenes of when they makeover the new girl and experienced that horrible news that he is dating another girl or just doesn’t like you.
What often appears in these classic romantic american films is the protagonist belongs to a ‘clique’ in her high school, may it be the popular ones, geeks or cheerleader, the school always has certain groups. Now, the rule goes that you belong to a group and you stay there throughout your school life, it is rare that you converse with another person who belongs to another ‘clique’ whether it may be your biggest crush who is the captain of the football team. After watching these high school films for so long it came to my attention recently as to what ‘clique’ or group I belong too in my own school?
Usually in England the groups are very different, there are lots more of them and they are more difficult to get along with. My school in particular I would say there are a large majority of ‘cliques’, so let me give you the break down of what they are. You have the popular boys and girls who everyone invites to parties or rely on for gossip, the music bunch who hang out by a piano in lunch singing or playing an acoustic guitar, the inbetweeners of girls and boys who often have their own things going on and can mix easily with ‘geeks’ or the music ones, the ‘geeks’ who are a small bunch of kids you never see or if you do are always in the library and the boarders who often keep to themselves, conversing in their home languages or in their rooms together.
So, where do I fit in? Well many may say this is vain of me but; everywhere. I have many friends who belong to different groups, I find it easy for me to hang out with diverse friends who belong to the various groups. For example, I will go and play netball with the popular girls for sport, spend my lunchtime with the inbetweeners who I class many as my best friends, call up one of my closest friends who is a boarder and laugh our heads off about crazy things, walk the corridor chatting away to a music student who I went to a gig with last week and happily share a table in the library with someone classed as a ‘geek’ where we help each other with homework.
For me I don’t understand the idea of these groups, okay I know that people like to be friends with someone who has mutual interests or connections then them. But why limit yourself to the others around you just because they belong to another group? It just doesn’t make sense to me. Maybe it’s because I have never really cared what anyone thought of me, and I’m not going to be friends with certain people just because they belong to the right ‘clique’?
In an ideal world i.e. senior school, everyone should be friends, or at least you should know everyone’s name. I know this is never going to happen due to some people caring more about their reputation then actual school work but we could give it a try. So, whoever is reading this I would like you to do something for me. When you get back to school from half term, try to make a new friend from another ‘clique’ or at least find out their name and what they are like. Because you never know in time they may actually turn out to be the friend you have always been looking for.
Just be warned before you start reading this post I would like to explain that it is a rant. Basically, i’m moaning about school work due to the large amount I have received in a WEEK for my half term.
Now I understand that I need to get set work to benefit me for exams and all that shizzle, but seriously why so much!? If it wasn’t half term then there is NO way I would get this much. So just because I’ve got a week of school suddenly set me loads? I don’t think so.
Yes, I will probably spend most of my week sleeping or lounging around because I am a teenager and that is what we do. But I’m not wanting to be using that valuable sleeping time or seeing my friends to spend hours cooped up inside my house working. Some of us also have jobs therefore having to squeeze unbelievable amounts of work into our busy schedules with also include family plans and seeing friends we haven’t seen in ages.
Some may think that I am over exaggerating about the amount of work I have to do this week, so I am going to share what I’ve got to do and you can make up your mind. Drama; 2 essays, read a play, learn lines of my play, and do first two sections of my coursework. Media; revise for a mock exam, and edit my music video. English; 2 essays and revise for another mock exam I’ve got. Business; do several long answer questions and revise.
You understand why I am so stressed now!? so I have to do all that in a week with other activities already planned leaving me stressed and not relaxed, which to be honest is the main reason why I have a half term from school is to be RELAXED so I can start chilled for the next term.
However, that is not going to happen for me. So right now I have lots of work to look forward too and no sleep happening. I’m sure when I look back on this in a couple of weeks I will think what was I moaning about!? But right now I need to let it out before I send a rude email to my teachers or scream at them..
School. A word that sends shivers down teenagers spines, the thought of homework and constant nagging from teachers is not the ideal situation for us. Some say that school was ‘the best time of their lives’ and i have known others who dread to go, and would do anything to avoid it. For me, school is a place where i learn and grow, am given responsibility and skills that i know i will use for the rest of my life. Worrying about exams or rushing to make it in time, doesn’t really happen to me which i feel lucky for. What really troubles me about school is what i’m going to do after it.
I have been in school since i can remember, never having to plan my activties as the teachers have done it for me. So what happens after i leave school? I’m expected to go out into the big wide world using the skills i’ve been taught and my own knowledge. University is the popular step after school, spending roughly the next three or four years drinking, studying and partying. But what happens if that doesn’t suit you? Where do you go then?
A gap year? I should be so lucky, due to unemployment and money issues only a few can afford the luxury of going to distant countries experiencing new things, and meeting exicting people. But what happens when you return home from the ‘trip of a life time’? You are stuck with money debt due to your travels, maybe not knowing what you actually want to do, and therefore in my view starting from square one again.
For many, we do not have the opporunity of guranteed work placements or internships but spend many many months searching for a well paid and full time job. Most spend time working part time in shops or cafes only doing it for the money. So I see my only option as university, although I may study a subject which to be honest will never have a career in or any relevance to my life later on.
Right now, I am focusing on doing the best I can in my exams and enjoying my last couple of years in school. Let’s wait and see what the future has in store for me..
